A Special Charity Golfing Event
Join us August 19, 2026 at Galloping Hills Golf Course
A Special Charity Golfing Event
Join us August 19, 2026 at Galloping Hills Golf Course
When my wife Lauren and I found out she was pregnant with our first child, we felt a host of emotions. We were nervous about how our lives would change but also felt a sense of overwhelming excitement to expand our family. Her pregnancy was uncomplicated, during every scan and check up we were told the baby was healthy and there was never any cause for concern. We had a baby shower, spent hours getting the nursery ready and tried to prepare as much as possible for our new arrival. The last step left was for Lauren to give birth. We never expected what happened next. At 38 weeks pregnant, on the afternoon of August 25th, 2024, Lauren noticed she hadn’t felt the baby move since earlier that day. She called her doctor, who wasn’t overly concerned, but had us come to the hospital to check on the baby and put our mind at ease. After arriving at the hospital they put monitors on, but soon realized that there was no heartbeat. The new life we dreamt about, planned and hoped for was suddenly stripped from us. Our son Logan was gone. There are things in your life that you can plan for, but learning that our son would be stillborn is not one of them. Having had a very normal and uneventful pregnancy, at 9 months pregnant we thought we were “safe” and would be bringing home a baby. Unfortunately we learned that nothing in life is a guarantee.
The following months were the hardest of our life, to say we felt devastated, lost and alone would be an understatement. The unbearable grief and sadness was punctuated by bouts of numbness and despair. The initial days folowing his death were surreal, the feeling of being untethered from reality because of a loss you couldn’t even imagine had occurred. We searched for answers but were given very little explanation as to what happened. Many stillbirths go unexplained or in our case are told that it was likely due to a cord accident. With that knowledge we did our best to put one foot in front of the other and find comfort in each other.
Our friends and family helped carry us through our initial shock and trauma. We are forever grateful for their tremendous love and support throughout our darkest days. As time passed, we often found it difficult to find connection with those around us, no matter who it was. It was challenging for anyone to relate or truly understand our grief and what we were going through. It wasn’t until we found Pockets of Light and Griffin Cares, that we felt fully understood and seen. These organizations connected us with other people who had been through similar experiences and know what it is like to lose their child the way we lost Logan. They gave us the space to grieve more completely than we had, and because of that we were able to start to heal.
Pockets of Light and Griffin Cares provide support, resources, and raise awareness for those that have been through pregnancy or infant loss. Through the efforts of these charities, we have learned that grief and joy can coexist and that we are not alone. We continue to grieve Logan, but have been able to find a measure of peace with what happened and found the strength to try again. On October 10th, 2025 we welcomed our rainbow baby, Levi, into our lives. We are overjoyed to have Levi here with us and want to continue honoring Logan. For that reason, we are starting the Fore Logan Invitational. A golf outing with the goal to raise awareness and funds for Pockets of Light and Griffin Cares, and help them continue to support other families like us. It is our sincere hope that those who have suffered a similar loss know that while it may feel like your whole world has collapsed it hasn’t, and the path forward isn’t as dark as it may seem. We appreciate you taking the time to read our story and hope you will join us at the Fore Logan Invitational on August 19th.
